Its 2.35 am in the morning and i can't sleep. Please jude, where ever you are, help me get in terms with your depature. Its hard to talk to anyone, so i decided to send you a personal mail. why, why why????????? I didn't get to say my good bye's. How do you expect us to survive. Sorry, but i have so much anger in me. Its not your fault, but i can't help but wonder. Is there anything i could have done to make you stay?
Anyway, i will never know till we meet again. I know i am rambling and chatting shit, but i am really hurt.
Who will i argue with now? How do you expect us to handle the problems we where talking about? Yes i wrote the letter as you told me, but you did not wait to get the responds.Do you know how stupid i looked when i got home announcing your death. So where do we go from here?
well, i need to go to bed now bro. i miss u a lot. i don't know how i will get through this. i just have to learn to live with it i guess.
Give me the strength please. Continue to watch over us and extend my love to our dad and the rest of the other saints in heaven. luv u a lot
Happy birthday bro. I hope you had a great party yesterday with the lord and all the saints. I miss you so much. No words can discribe it. Watch over us ok!!
tons of love
fidelis
Uncle Jude, we celebrated your birthday yesterday at your resting place in Forest Park Cemetary. It was not thesame without your physical presence but we held on to your spirit and memories. We chatted, took pictures and shared jokes like we normally did and then sang the big old "Happy Birthday" song just for you. Your candles were still on your grave and your Roses still fresh and bright. Happy B-day again son and your memories live on forever in our hearts.
I told you I wasn't gonna forget ur birthday this year you thought I was joking....Happy birthday Jay....I wish you where here but if wishes were horses beggers would ride....u Live forever in my heart...I miss u Endlessly.....
Sly, nyanga boy, clean boy!
Watching you being lowered into the earth on 06/05/2010 was a bitter pill to swallow. This feels like an unending nightmare! In a bitter sweet way, you did look peaceful and out of pain unlike in the hospital. I guess we should be thankful you are out of pain and resting in the lord. I t was a pleasure knowing you for 17 years; I would have loved 60 more. You are such a gentle soul, one of the sweetest persons I have ever known. And that warm, sweet smile, would be greatly missed; but guess what, it is ingrained in my memory 4ever! Do say a prayer for us with the angels till we meet again.We love you but God loves you more. Rest in peace bro, rest in perfect peace. You have humbled us.Love you always, LaBelle(aka sweetheart)
